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Fear Of Heights

At the end of the day, some you win, some you don’t. So I’m glad that I’m here with some friends that I know. Always there with a smile, saying you’re not alone. Say it la la la la caesura.

My daughter has been walking around the house singing this jovial song. She attended her school camp last week and came back a totally different person. She was so excited to let me know that she had over come her fear of heights. The camp supervisors and instructors had a number of activities set for the 3 days that all the students were there.

The children all participated in “Team” activities. My daughter was the first to raise her hand and join the opposition team to balance out the numbers and she said that the instructor praised her for doing so. He said that she was the first one to take the first step in team participation. I was so proud of her, because it’s something I would’ve done and it felt good that in doing that, she reflected what we have taught her. Be a part of something good.

She then went on to telling me that she attempted to take part in all the activities, even if was only once. She is terrified of heights and I was so worried for her after reading her school letter. All the students were asked to take a camera along to the camp, I was happy with that, being a photographer, I love making record of events such as that. So she scrolled through her camera and played a video that her friend had recorded for her.

And there she was, on the high rope with her safety gear on and walking along so confidently. She took her time but she had completed the task and as a parent it was amazing to watch my empowering child reach the end of her fear. It was over! And I found myself hugging her so tightly, kissing her head and face and congratulating her on her achievement. She stood there laughing and saying “Mum, I can’t breathe!”.

She did say that if it weren’t for the encouragement of her friends and her team, she probably wouldn’t have taken that leap of faith. She’s known her friends since we moved here to the Gold Coast, since she was 6 years old. This is their final year together at school and her best and closest friend will be attending a different school next year. However, they have promised to keep in contact. So this is the reason why I haven’t minded her singing this song repeatedly.

At the end of the day, some you win, some you don’t. So I’m glad that I’m here with some friends that I know. Always there with a smile, saying you’re not alone. Say it la la la la caesura.

This time around, She WON!!

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The Impact Of Music

Music has always played a huge part in my life. As a child I strummed my first guitar at 4 years old. My mothers younger brother had migrated to New Zealand from the Cook Islands and he had brought his guitar. He would let me strum at the strings and I would sing a song making up the lyrics as I would go along. It wasn’t till I was 5 years of age when he taught me my first chords, D,G and A.

All songs consist of 3 main chords and the fill ins are minor and major chords. I was playing and singing like a pro at only 8 years of age. I loved writing songs alongside with composing music by that age and it wouldn’t necessarily be about life experiences, but more so about my imaginations. Funny as it sounds but when I now listen to groups such as Cold Play’s song “A sky full of stars”, yeah that was the kind of lyrics I would write and music I would compose.

I also went on to playing the piano, I played a lot better by ear than reading music off a sheet , however I did learn how to read music in Intermediate and College. I would also participate in school productions, either in acting, singing or playing the guitar and piano. One school production my beautiful younger sister Clara played the part as “Beauty” in “Beauty and the Beast” and so I took part in the band and played the piano for the theme song, sung by Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson. My parents were so proud of both of us taking part in something together. I really wanted my sister to shine and just feel the love and support from me as her older sister. She looked absolutely stunning, waltzing to this song as I played for her.

Music is so significant, it signifies moments in our lives, expressions of emotions and memories. I cannot remember where I have placed things at times but you ask me what I was doing 20 years ago, I can tell you by recollection of what song or music I was listening to on the radio or television at that time. Everyone needs music in their lives, it’s the one language we can all understand and relate too.

My parents would always have us children singing songs, music was always alive in our home. We grew up without a television and only listened to radio Rhema, a Christian radio station in New Zealand in the late 70’s, early 80’s, but that was okay because we were content with that. I loved listening to my father sing, he sounded like a Tenor opera singer. He had power and authority in his voice, but when speaking to us he had a gentle and kind voice, like he still does.

My two sisters and I would always practice songs during the week to perform an item at church each Sunday and we loved doing that. Our harmonies were always in sync and timing was impeccable, Clara would sing the melody, Eli would sing soprano and I would sing alto because neither of my sisters could reach the low notes haha! Relatives and friends would ask us to sing at weddings, birthdays, you name it, we were there singing.

I then went on to singing backup vocals in a band for eleven years and loved every moment of it. Singing alongside professional musicians is such an amazing feeling. Being on stage was a thrill and a privilege, but on the down side I missed out on immediate and extended family events and occasions. But when I could, I would attend family gatherings, even if I turned up an hour before finishing time. We were such a happy go lucky type of band but a committed one at that, always being punctual for practices and gig dates. All we wanted to do was to share our love for music and that’s what I appreciated about my friends in the band. We still strongly keep in touch with each other. Below is a YouTube video of one of our recordings. By the way, I was 7 months pregnant with my daughter while doing this track, very hard to breathe when you’re trying to use your diaphragm to sing ha!

My husband then asked me to do an album with his older brother Mata and so I made time to do that for him, not realising how much this album has now meant so much to him. ‘My brother-in-law passed away to cancer in 2012 and I’m so glad that I did this album with him. My dear husband occasionally listens to his brothers other albums, just to hear his voice. How music is also a lifesaver, reminding us of our lost loved ones. Mata was very popular amongst the French Polynesian and Cook Island music listeners. Everyday we miss his jovial laugh and his joking attitude. This YouTube video clip is from our album “Matahina Roots” taken from our names but is also a Manihikian ancestress of ours. The song he is singing is an old French Polynesian song describing how a person feels dead without his lovely maiden.

When I gave birth to my daughter in 2002, my life was complete. The music was sweeter and it had more meaning. I would sing to her while she was in my stomach and when she was born I continued to sing to her. I still sing to her now and it always soothes her before bedtime, or when she’s not well and sick. Music is my best friend, it has always been there for me during my sad and happy times.

I had the last waltz with you, two lonely people together. I fell in love with you, the last waltz should last forever!.